Save Second Base

Matty showing the Top Ten...Why to do your self breast exams...Yes my hubby does look great in pink doesn't he.
Keri, Sugar Mommy and Ande posing...say cheese.

Matty posing...

Sugar Mommy posing...

Molly=Survivor=my BFF

Saturday night was a fun filled Mommy's (and Daddy's) evening out. Of course we did some birthday celebrating...but we also went out to celebrate for another very special reason. As I have mentioned before, my BFF of almost 20 years is a Breast Cancer Survivor. She was diagnosed in May of this year with Stage 1 Breast Cancer. (At the ripe ole age of 31.) She has been through HELL over the last few months. Finishing her chemotherapy treatment and is now almost finished with radiation. We celebrated her battle and her long life ahead of her. We designed tee-shirts and donated monies raised to others battling this horrible disease. We headed out (for many of us) on our very first pub crawl. October is Breast Cancer Awareness month, so it was the perfect time to spread the knowledge about keeping your tatas healthy. It was a lot of fun. We shared many laughs, some tears and some adult beverages. Raise a glass and share a toast to Molly! May your life be long, full of good health, and many more wonderful memories.

Quiet time

I learned Thursday morning that if you have to make a visit to the emergency room. 6 am is the best time to go. Really, it is so quiet there. All the staff was super friendly, and I was in and out in just under 2 hours. I hadn't been feeling very well, and in the middle of the night felt really really bad. I will spare the informational details and just say that during my trip to the ER I learned I have a bad uti/bladder infection. Long story short, I have been on antibiotics for 36 hours and I am feeling so much better. The nurse that was caring for me was really nice. She was amazed (to say the least) that I had triplets. We agreed that while the labs were being sent I would enjoy the "quiet time." It's bad when you have to go to the ER to enjoy the "quiet".

Cause

Saturday night is a special occasion! It is the "Save the Tatas" pub crawl. In honor of my BFF finishing chemotherapy and being half way finished with radiation treatments. We are having a night out on the town to celebrate boobies! I am so excited. What a great day to celebrate...What a great cause to celebrate for. October is Breast Cancer Awareness month...so in the words of my BFF, "Get them Checked Girls! You don't need a reason to feel your boobies!"

National Day of Remembrance

October 15th-National Day of Remembrance. A day when we remember the loss so many families have had to endure. Miscarriage, Stillbirth, SIDS, Prematurity, Complications. The loss of a precious child. Please visit the site above, Bring the Rain, to join a heart warming prayer chain. What a beautiful reason.
As I stare into the little faces of of beautiful daughters, I take comfort knowing that the Lord has a plan for us. All of us. No matter how difficult that is to see, to feel, to understand, HE understands. I will never forget the path (or the hill to be exact)Matt and I took to be where we are today. We lost three pregnancies. Three babies we will never hold in our loving arms, yet hold so tightly within our hearts. I still feel the ache, I still cry and am filled with tears, especially on days like today. I do take comfort in knowing that my unborn babies are resting in the hands of the Lord. I do take pride in that the Lord chose me to be their Mommy. Even though at the time I was so filled with sorrow I could not understand it. I praise HIM everyday for the four Little Beauties I am so privileged to hold in my arms and within my heart everyday. I have found peace that He knew that Chloe, Jocelyn, Farrah and Silvie needed to be here with me to complete his mission for their lives. I trust that someday I will meet my unborn babies, all four of them, and they will embrace me as their mother. I am confident that all that I have endured makes me a better Mommy. It makes me a stronger woman. It lead me back into the arms of the Lord. Today, however, it is okay for me to think. It is okay for me to cry and for my heart to ache. Also a day to smile and know that my Little Angels are playing happily in Heaven. May the Lord bless ALL of my Little Beauties, both in Heaven and on Earth. May God bless all the Little Babies and the families that keep them within their arms and within their hearts. I remember your loss and I pray for you today.

Thank You

If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you.
When mountains crumble to the sea, there will still be you and me.
Kind woman, I give you my all, Kind woman, nothing more.
Little drops of rain whisper of the pain, tears of loves lost in the days gone by.
My love is strong, with you there is no wrong,together we shall go until we die.
My, my, my.
An inspiration is what you are to me, inspiration, look... see.
And so today, my world it smiles, your hand in mine, we walk the miles, Thanks to you it will be done, for you to me are the only one.
Happiness, no more be sad, happiness....I'm glad.
If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you.
When mountains crumble to the sea, there will still be you and me.

"Thank You"
artist Led Zeppelin

Simple and True. This was the song that was sung during our wedding ceremony, while we lit the unity candle. My good friend Heather said..."Kimberly, the only gal I know who would have a Zeppelin song sung in her wedding." But in my defense, the words are very powerful, and speak volumes about Matt and I. So "Thank You" to the band for writing such a great tune.

Six Years for Sugar and Stinky

Happy Anniversary to my Stinky! (yesterday)
Have I told you lately that I love you? Have I told you there's no one above you? You fill my heart with gladness, take away my sadness, ease my troubles, that's what you do.
Six years since the day we said "I Do". I still "do" more and more everyday!
You are my husband, my best friend, the father of our beautiful daughters, my support, my hero, my rock, my soul mate, my prince charming, my balance, my everything!
I LOVE YOU STINKY! Here's to a lifetime of memories together.

I want a new Mommy!

I knew I would hear those words someday. However, I didn't think I would hear them when Chloe was only four. This morning began in the wee morning hours while I was up with Jocelyn. She didn't feel like sleeping last night. Maybe she misses her Daddy. Maybe she just needed some extra cuddle time. Big Sis was less than thrilled about it. She is still not sleeping in her own bed. Her nighttime resting place is in our bed. I wish there was an easy solution to this problem. The sleeping with us began, as many of you know, when she was a baby. We were doing pretty well there for a while, getting her to at least go to bed at night in her bed. (Us laying down with her of course.) She would stay in bed for a few hours and then come downstairs to crawl in bed with us. It seems lately that we cannot even get her to stay in her bed for a short time. It also seems that even when she sleeps with us,she senses immediately when we exit the bed and leave the room. As soon as we leave the room, she wakes and starts to cry. She says she is scared. We have resorted to taking her to bed with us every night. I know this is a bad habit. A bad habit that we cannot seem to break. We have tried SO MANY things to break the cycle. Ticket game, prizes, flat out bribery. It will not work with her. This morning she freaked at about 5 am, when I went to pick up sobbing Jocelyn. After getting her calm and placing her back in her bed, Chloe literally clung to me for the next three hours. Saying she was afraid I was going to leave her alone again. The morning spiraled from there. Silvie had a doctors appointment this morning in reference to her hair falling out. (The doctor said that it seemed to be nothing to worry about, the hair is already beginning new growth. It seems she is pulling it out herself. She said that this can happen in some kids.) When Silvie and I arrived back home, Chloe began where we left off...crying and upset about anything and everything. After lunch (which she refused to eat) it was time to get ready for her to go to school. The words followed me asking her and then telling her to go brush her teeth. (This is a yet another battle. She hates brushing her teeth and will not do it alone.) After I firmly instructed teeth brushing, and told her she could not go to school without brushing them, she replied with, and I quote, "I want a new Mommy! You are a mean Mommy!" My come back was "I still love you and it makes me sad that you want a new Mommy." She then began crying, sobbing rather and said she was sorry for being a bad kid. I gave her a hug and told her that she is not a bad kid, and that I love her no matter what. Tears come to my eyes just thinking about it. I am not sure what I am doing wrong,what I can do differently. I wish some lightning bolt would strike and the answer would come to me. I want her to be secure, to be confident. What point do I become concerned that she maybe too sensitive? Why is she scared of being in another room without me? Our home is a comfortable one. Small and cozy. I can hear what is going on in any room no matter where in the house I am. How do you explain that to a four year old? We arrived at school, she was excited to see her friends and play. After I returned to the van, I cried. All the way home I cried. I love her with my entire being. It makes me ache that something is bothering her and I cannot figure out how to fix it.

Tie-Dyed

Our new shirts...pumpkin oragnge tie-dye.

Here are some photos of the finished work. Chloe and I tie-dyed. (With a little help.)

Thanks Gramma
I was unable to get any shots of us in action...
I think they turned out pretty well. Although Jocelyn's face doesn't back that up.
Didn't even have any tie dyed furniture. Probably because the Littlest Beauties weren't helping with the process.

I miss you Stinky

Stinky left last night. No he didn't leave me. Haha very funny. Just left for school in Des Moines for the week. It's the Little Beauties and Mommy for the entire week. The week is off to a good start! The Beauties slept in until 8:30 this morning and they are in the middle of a napper right now. Miss Chloe and I have been busy coloring Halloween pictures. We are digging craft time these days. I think we may pick up some supplies and do some Halloween t-shirt tie-dying tomorrow. Not sure...maybe that idea would classify me as crazy. We must keep busy I say.

Suggestions welcome

Happy Friday to you. I am so enjoying this fall weather! I must say though I do miss my BFF...hope you miss me too.

Matt and I have been talking about the purchase of a new camera. "Talking" being the keyword. More like wishing on my part. The other night I wanted to throw the good ole "pos" camera we have in the trash...every shot I took was 2 seconds too late, or blurred or both! The beauty of a point and shoot style. Anyway, we have been looking and comparing different D-SLR cameras. Obviously, a lot of research needs to be put forth before the purchase. We will not be making another camera purchase for a very long time. He surprised me the other night, and said he would like me to start looking more seriously. When I questioned why...he said he had been saving overtime money and he and the Little Beauties would like to "give" me a new camera for my birthday in a few weeks. I am so excited! So long story short, we have been looking and comparing and looking and comparing some more! I would LOVE to hear pros/cons/suggestions on models that you may be familiar with/own/want. Please...tell me what you can...