I have to start...just for clarification...not that any is needed, but I guess it makes me feel better about venting...I love being a Mommy. I love EVERY single thing about it. Yes, even the tough times. I try not to complain. I know how fortunate I am. God has touched my heart. I know this. I thank HIM everyday for all that I have.
That being said...this is after all Sugar Mommy's blog...and I need to get it off my chest. I found over the last year that I do this best in writing, so here goes.
Chloe was such an easy toddler. One of her, one of me. She was not a messy baby. She didn't fight (no one to fight with) but still. She always loved being snuggled and even though she "still" sleeps with us, she slept through the night (with us). Now as she nears the five year mark...she is very smart...she argues with Mommy. I know this is normal but I thought I had a few years left before it really started. When she is told o she goes into full blown tantrum. She is still sleeping with us, oh sorry, did I mention that already? How do I get her in her own bed so that I can have a peaceful nights rest? One without feet in my ribs, elbows to the face, slaps to the cheek, having to get up and switch sides because I am pushed to the very edge (in a king bed) and having someone on top of me most of the night? Another thing...what is up with the messy room? Seriously...I knew it would happen but she is four and she changes her clothing more than any sixteen year old I have ever seen? Where do the clothes go you ask...yea the floor. Who puts them away you ask? Time after time after time. Yea...not Chloe.
The triplets...once so tiny...are full blown almost two-year olds. I thought things would be a bit easier as they grew a bit older. However, I think they are getting more and more difficult. Yes, they are sleeping through the night. Bonus on my end. The days however...WOW. They cry, they fight, they bite, they pull hair, they ALL want Mommy at the same time. They have all been battling this cold crud for a few weeks now. But they are so crabby all of the time. They will not take regular naps, just short ones most days. I feel like I am in heaven when the actually take an hour and a half nap maybe twice a week. Let's just say they are not ready to forfeit their nap yet. Neither am I! I need that small amount of time to revamp for the rest of the day and evening. What am I doing wrong. They are the most messy eaters! I need some help on this one. Meal times have become a case for The Nanny! Seriously...every meal looks like a food fight took place in my kitchen! I feel like I cannot keep up! I know they are toddlers. I just think I need some advice on my end of things to cope with it better. I am emotionally exhausted. I am normally a fairly organized woman. However, right now...my home looks like a couple gang punks ransacked everything looking for diamonds. Either that or a toy store threw up in here. There is literally stuff EVERYWHERE! Toys, laundry, stuff we don't have room for...clutter. I need to be on that organizing show, you know the one on TLC? So if you want to nominate me...I am game.
Matty is working so much overtime! I try not to complain, because we need the extra money. But it really is very difficult to be at home all day and all night just the Beauties and I. I miss him, they miss him.
I know I already said it...but I am emotionally exhausted. I feel so much older than I should feel. I feel grouchy and anxious.
I love my life. Good times and Bad times. I wouldn't trade anything that I have for easier times. Just looking for some advice. Maybe a little encouragement. All I want is to be the best Mommy I can be.
I guess I just needed to get that out so I didn't blow.
Thank you for listening...to me vent.
6 comments:
That's what were here for - you vent, we listen. Your doing a great job. Things will get better.
If you weren't already a good mommy, you wouldn't even worry about all this! So, pat yourself on the back and realize we all have days like that. Well, except yours are probably worse because most of us didn't have three babies at once.
My dear sweet Kimberly~
This to shall pass. You are a wonderful, normal, human being! I would totally start to worry about you if you DID NOT VENT from time to time! We are all so very blessed with our lives, but that doesn't mean that we can't be frustrated and down right TIRED with things in our lives!! It's OKAY!! We are all hard on ourselves when we have times like these, but remember...this to shall pass! Take a deep breath, close your eyes, exhale, open your eyes and look at your family/house/toys everywhere and smile...know that...this to shall pass!! Someday those beauties will be changing your Depends and brushing your dentures and you my dear friend will be making the mess!!hee hee :) Remember my shoulders are just a hop, skip and a jump away if need to lean on them!! You always have been and always will be a true inspiration to me! I love you and miss ya bunches!
Wendy
I just found your blog. Your kids are adorable and I can totally relate to your post, as a sahm to 4 and a hubby that works overtime, including nights. I cannot relate to having triplets though....I'm sure that addds another dimension to it all. Hang in there, my oldest is 9 and time really does go so fast. I have to remember this with my youngest, 18 month old son. He is a handful and so busy. But each phase is so short and then they keep growing and changing.... You're doing great, venting here is much better than venting at your kids! :)
I am here to commiserate!!! My four little beauties are even closer in age than yours (almost 4 and 2.5 trio), and sometimes I think I'm going to loose my mind. Venting really helps... though I try not to do so on my blog too much b/c my DH is in Iraq right now and seeing photos on the blog with the stories that accompany them is often the bright spot of his day.
Vent away... I completely understand where you are coming from.... At the same time blown away by the goodness and grace God has given and still frazzled at the end of many a day! I may just join you on occasion from the comments section.
My two girls fight like WWE girly ho stars. It's insane. I have another on the way and I can't imagine what I'm in for. YOu however, KUDOS kudos KudOs. :) HANG IN THERE. ;)
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